When bad things happen you really find out who your true friends are. They are the people who are there for you when times get though. Last year was really tough for me, I went through a horrible break-up, my confidence, trust and well everything was shattered. Looking back, I thought I was all alone but I had a few people that were really there for me. They let me cry, scream, say horrible things and yes even trash a hotel room without any judgement. They listened to me and understood what I was going through and let me go through it. I don't know if I could have gotten through it if it hadn't been for them.
Today I am a better friend because of those few people that I let into my life. I thought that if I drop everything to be there for my friend, which I have done on many occasion or I bailed out a friend in trouble or if I layed into someone character assassinating one of my friends, then I was the best friend anyone could have and I should get the same treatment. I have had a lot of resentments towards friends of mine in the past because I felt they should do more. Being what I've learned is, a friendship should have no limits and no expectations. There should be no judgment towards them what ever they do. That is what friendship is, love and understanding with no expectations of getting what you give. I love my friends so much and they know who they are. The best part is that I tell them on a regular basis how much I love them and how much they mean to me. This weekend I am celebrating my birthday with people I love and trust and care about and that is worth all the gold in California...OK so I am having a little friend love fest......SUE ME!!

I get by with a little help from my friends

When times are tough you really find out who your true friends are. They are the people who are there for you when times get though. I have always considered myself a good friend. I'm there when they need me and know that I will do anything for them and in the past few years i have never really trusted anyone enough to let them in. Last year was really tough for me. I went through a horrible break-up, my confidence, trust and well everything was shattered. Looking back, I thought I was all alone but I had a few people that were really there for me. They let me cry, scream, say horrible things and yes even trash a hotel room without any judgement. They listened to me and understood what I was going through and let me go through it. I don't know if I could have gotten through it if it hadn't been for them.
Today I am a better friend because of those few people that i let into my life. I thought that if I drop everything to be there for my friend, which I have done on many occasion or I bailed out a friend in trouble or if I layed into someone character assianating one of my friends, then I was the best friend anyone could have and I should get the same treatment. I have had a lot of resientments towards friends of mine because I felt they should do more. Being a friend should have no limits and no expectaions. There should be no judgment towards them what ever they do. That is what friendship is, love and understanding with no expectations of getting what you give. I love my friends so much and they know who they are. The best part is that I tell them on a regular basis how much I love them and how much they mean to me. This weekend I am celebrating my birthday with people I love and trust and care about and that is worth all the gold in California...OK so I am having a little friend love fest......SUE ME!!

DISCO FEVER

If you know me I've had three great loves in my life, well maybe two. The one constant love of my life is the ever popular Disco Bloom. My four legged daughter that has been with me through the bad of the bad and the best of the best and for some reason just loves loves loves me. I found her 11 years ago walking down sate rad 84 in Ft. Lauderdale. Turns out that she escaped from a pit bull farm. These are training places where they use small dog to make the pit bulls killers. I can't even imagine what she went through. It has made her skittish and to this day doesn't like to be around other dogs. She does however love people and has the ability to make everyone she meets fall in love with her, including me. She was the princess of Miami Beach and know she rules the hearts of West Hollywood.
She has lately been ill. Disco had an ear infection and it has infected her neurologically, she has lost her hearing and her eye is messed up. Next week I take her to get an MRI to see if she has a brain tumor. Which if she does I have made the decision not to put her through the pan and trauma of the treatments. Just please if you are reading this keep her in your prayers. She is amazing dog and can't imagine life without her. Sorry to be a bummer but I had to get it off my chest. TTFN

It's my party and I'll pamper myself if i want to

So I woke up this morning and I'm not trying to be cocky but I do not look 41! i Guess because I act like I'm in my 20's it evens it all out. In 2007 I had back surgery and after 17 months and three surgeries later my back is in great shape. I have been walking like a duck for two years, so last week I went on a little vacation. I headed down to my old stopping grounds, Miami Beach. I had an amazing time. It was exactly what i wanted, the 5 star treatment. I stayed in the biggest and best suite at The Delano and I didn't want for anything...NOTHING!! I woke up to coffee and fresh fruit waiting for me in the living room when I woke up. I got shoulder massages while I laid out by the pool. It was a pure luxury experience and I loved every minute of it!!
I got to spend time with some old friends. Thursday night I had dinner with my best friends,Michael Scigliano or as i call him Sig. We got to catch up and laugh and talk about what is going on in our lives at dinner and then hung out by the pool at The Delano all day Friday and it was so much fun. The whole week was amazing and I won't let another two years go by before I do that again.
I am looking forward to this weekend..I have a fun filled birthday weekend planned with people I care about and feel safe with. Friday dinner with the boys at Asia DE Cuba at The Mondrian on Sunset Blvd. Game night on Saturday..YOU BITCHES ARE GOING DOWN!! and Sunday, Well I'll tell you about that later :) Thank you for all of you who called ,text ed and face booked your birthday wishes. As Sally Fields once put it" you like me! you really really like me."

The Eve of My 41st Bday

So on the eve of my 41st birthday I have decided to start a blog. To start off, how about a little history. I am from Boca Raton, Florida(yes no lie) and lived in Miami Beach Florida for 10 fun filled years. I am a former Circuit boy. What that means is that i spent my 20's and most of my 30's going from city to city hitting every gay party there was. It was SEX, DRUGS AND DISCO BALLS and I loved every minute of it!!! I seen and done it all. lots of leather and lollipops, hence the name of my blog.
The party ended for me in 2005 when after two years of circling the drain my family kidnapped me and carted me off to rehab. I always said that if I got sober I would moved to LA to pursue my dream of working in the entertainment field, so that is what I did. i got sober and loaded up the truck and moved to Beverly, Hills that is...
Now the present. I just started my own non-for -profit service organization called The Los Angeles Service Club. Our main objective is to get people involved in Volunteerism and help those in need. i have been very fortunate in my life and have lived a charmed life. I am in a place in my life where it is time to give back and help others.
Don't get me wrong I had a great time and have done some amazing things. I just don't have a lot to show for my 40 years and want to make a difference while I have what time let on this earth.
I hope you keep up with me on this blog. i plan to do some amazing things and have a lot of stories to share. I hope you will stick with me for more new adventures and outrageous outing so until next time, I bid you a good night. :)